How much do i need to work towards the good things that i want?
That question brings forth a few other questions.
- What makes something good?
- What do you mean by work?
- How much can i trust wants to be the best thing for me?
By work, i mean things that i wouldn't normally do. Things that common sense would tell me is a progressive undertaking. Something that adult family members would see as responsible. Work also includes all things that would earn me money.
Something good is what i would deem as collectively benifitial. I think that if i do what's best for me, and experience personal growth, then it is wholly benificial.
I don't trust my wants very much. I think the best things that have happened to me have been taken care of by outside sources. But maybe my desires are God's way of pushing me towards what i should be pushed towards.
Back to the original question, the good things that i want are musical instruments, and musical instruction. My favorite place for musical instruction is Selkirk College. The instruments i want are not too expensive, but numerous. I could go through three thousand dollars without much trouble. Fifteen hundred is a fair and accurate minimum for what i call essentials (mandolin, loop pedal, new bass) and an electric drum kit isn't far behind.
Selkirk College would cost 4000 a year for tuition and fees. It's a two year program. It sounds like everything i want to learn, musically. Can i get another student loan? Do i want another student loan? I had thought that i really hated being in debt, but maybe i don't mind. I'm fairly certain that i'll make enough money to pay the loans back without too much trouble. It would just take a while, that's all.
If i think that i should get out of debt, then i need to assemble about 25,000 before going into school. Twelve thousand to eliminate my current student loan debt, and the rest towards tuition and living expenses for nelson. But here i am, with a couple thousand dollars of float expected throughout the summer, and i want to spend it on toys. Toys which will help educate and broaden my musicianship, but toys, none the less.
When EI drops out in july, i'll stop being wealthy. I'll need another job to maintain living arrangements. How much do i need to work towards the good things that i want? The answer i like the most is not at all. Everything that comes naturally and enjoyably (non-work) is everything i need to do for what's best for me. If best for me includes higher musical education, then a persuit of enjoyment will land me enough money to get there. Or i'll find out that a student loan is perfectly sufficient. I've got a really nice caretaker. It's the LORD!
DIG IT!
simon
I started bass lessons recently. Happy about that.
Got a little problem though, not sure what it is. Whatever keeps falling between reality and perfection. It's really an attention grabber. Surely it wouldn't exist if i didn't see it, but it's there from time to time.
I consider myself a person who doesn't see this difference all the time. There are often times when reality is perfection to me. Wonderful times.
I don't think it's unreasonable for me to want everyone to like me. It'd be unreasonable if i was alright with being disliked.
Y'know that bit about not posting for a while, wanting to post a good one? It's ignorable.
simon
That question brings forth a few other questions.
- What makes something good?
- What do you mean by work?
- How much can i trust wants to be the best thing for me?
By work, i mean things that i wouldn't normally do. Things that common sense would tell me is a progressive undertaking. Something that adult family members would see as responsible. Work also includes all things that would earn me money.
Something good is what i would deem as collectively benifitial. I think that if i do what's best for me, and experience personal growth, then it is wholly benificial.
I don't trust my wants very much. I think the best things that have happened to me have been taken care of by outside sources. But maybe my desires are God's way of pushing me towards what i should be pushed towards.
Back to the original question, the good things that i want are musical instruments, and musical instruction. My favorite place for musical instruction is Selkirk College. The instruments i want are not too expensive, but numerous. I could go through three thousand dollars without much trouble. Fifteen hundred is a fair and accurate minimum for what i call essentials (mandolin, loop pedal, new bass) and an electric drum kit isn't far behind.
Selkirk College would cost 4000 a year for tuition and fees. It's a two year program. It sounds like everything i want to learn, musically. Can i get another student loan? Do i want another student loan? I had thought that i really hated being in debt, but maybe i don't mind. I'm fairly certain that i'll make enough money to pay the loans back without too much trouble. It would just take a while, that's all.
If i think that i should get out of debt, then i need to assemble about 25,000 before going into school. Twelve thousand to eliminate my current student loan debt, and the rest towards tuition and living expenses for nelson. But here i am, with a couple thousand dollars of float expected throughout the summer, and i want to spend it on toys. Toys which will help educate and broaden my musicianship, but toys, none the less.
When EI drops out in july, i'll stop being wealthy. I'll need another job to maintain living arrangements. How much do i need to work towards the good things that i want? The answer i like the most is not at all. Everything that comes naturally and enjoyably (non-work) is everything i need to do for what's best for me. If best for me includes higher musical education, then a persuit of enjoyment will land me enough money to get there. Or i'll find out that a student loan is perfectly sufficient. I've got a really nice caretaker. It's the LORD!
DIG IT!
simon
I locked myself out of my house. I'm at the library.
I started bass lessons recently. Happy about that.
Got a little problem though, not sure what it is. Whatever keeps falling between reality and perfection. It's really an attention grabber. Surely it wouldn't exist if i didn't see it, but it's there from time to time.
I consider myself a person who doesn't see this difference all the time. There are often times when reality is perfection to me. Wonderful times.
I don't think it's unreasonable for me to want everyone to like me. It'd be unreasonable if i was alright with being disliked.
Y'know that bit about not posting for a while, wanting to post a good one? It's ignorable.
simon