Major shout out to josh and my mother!
Between the two of them and myself, my student loan appeal application has been completed and sent in with approx 24 hours of preparation time, and an hour and a half to spare.
It's good to know there's people to count on when the going gets tough.
I want you to know that I can be counted on if the going gets tough for you.
In other news, i really dont know what i'm doing next year, i could be on either coast of the country, or somewhere near the middle. I could be in school, i could be employed. I will be playing music, but i dont know who with, or to what extent.
Two things are fairly certain though, i will be happy, and i wont be wealthy. Cheers.
You're just like every other girl
you read your book and fix your hair
you're just like every other girl
your head stays down, you make me stare
You've got me longing for your smell
you're meant for me i can just tell
I can't get up, i'm stuck in hell
i'm stapled down, i'm stapled down
I just deny
All of my bottled up and watered down emotions
so why
is it this way everytime?
You're just like every other girl
and you see someone you know
just like every other girl
you smile 'till your dimples show
I wish so much
that i was the one to make you laugh just then
is it too much
to want to cross paths just to try again
I'm so tired
of all my bottled up and watered down emotions
so why
is it this way every time
I just deny
all of my bottled up and watered down emotions
so why
why am i stapled down, i'm stapled down.
Note#2: Dave commented at some point during the forming of this large comment, and he managed to say many of my key points. And i must compliment, he said these key points with fewer words, and therefor, in a more straitforward and accurate way. Kudos! And also, i look forward to a forum being set up. Alas, my comment is the following. And due to the nature of the comments in progress, most of it is directed to the josh.
Considering the next two quotes, i can tell from the top one that i've drawn the wrong conclusion from the bottom one, but read it again, can you blame me?
"Just because I have certain views on how parenting in the world works, does not mean those are my views on how I would parent." - josh
"It's a burden for a lot of people, which is why I don't plan on having kids for a very long time" - josh
So again, i'm sorry if i misjudged your comment. To be honest, i think you'd be a good father too, but thinking of parenting in terms of only having one child because of the potential burdan that children bring is not cool thinking in my books.
I admit that there's alot of people who do not want to become pregnant, but as dave said, these are the people who choose to give their children up for adoption or have them aborted. If you can find me a single mother who carried their child for 9 months and is currently raising them who will say that they do not want their child, then you'll have proved me wrong.
Then there's the comment about families living in poverty. Are they not capable of loving their child dispite the fact that it's financially difficult to care for them?
As far as parents who beat their children, in anything that i've ever heard they dont do it because they hate their children. People (that i know of) have beaten their children because they think that they know what is best for their child, and they dont know how to properly raise their children. They think if they beat their children, then they can get their child to understand them, and to follow their rules.
I dont know why you brought up AIDS, other then to state that children with aids dont live to be three years old. After a good 25 seconds of internet research (which isn't foolproof, but meh) i found this (it pertains to children in the UK):
"In the last ten years (1992-2002), 2254 children have been born to infected mothers. These children are either of indeterminate HIV status or not infected. Nevertheless, they are still affected by their mother’s illness." - www.cwac.org
Josh, i know all too well that there are alot of fathers who are frightened at the idea of halting their lives to take care of their new families, but this is sort of an argument in the wrong direction. If these fathers stay, then that would be taking care of their kids because it's what's expected of them, the fact that they leave proves that parents are not taking care of their children due to obligation. The fathers who stay to take care of their children do so because they have a desire to do so. And i want to add, that although some leave, it doesn't mean they dont care.
Finally, to kinda wrap up what i've been saying, i know there's alot of people who do not want to have children. I am one of these people who does not want a child. But i dont believe there's alot of people who dont want the children that they already have.
As far as people and their occupations, people show up to work because they want to receive pay for their jobs. If you dont go to work, then you get fired. The fact that their employers expect them to go to work, doesn't mean thats the reason they go.
I would hope that people become police officers because they like to help people, but at the very least, i would think people become cops because they feel power in their ability to uphold the law. And again, if someone doesn't do their job correctly, then they will have trouble keeping their job.
Just because i think life would be better if there wasn't any expectations of us does NOT mean i think life would be sweet if it was made easier. All of our dreams are reachable if we feel passionately about them and about our ability to reach them.
Another thing about life being made easier, i'd just like to say i'm tired of automatic doors. I can open my own door, i dont need some censored floor mat to open the door for me. Unless i'm leaving a store with a cart full of groceries, but i've gotta say, the situation hasn't come up. If a kind lady or gentleman opens a door for me, then i'll be happy to send him/her a kind smile, and be grateful for their efforts. I'll gladly hold a door for someone else as i'm leaving.
If our expectations are that doors will be automatically opened for us, then the oportunity for a kind gesture is lost. Which is another boo-urns for expectations.
Holy long comment batman!
I hit the snooze many times, and when i finally snapped out of the 9 minute sleep cycle, it was about 40 minutes before my first class. I decided that i wasn't going to make it to this class. I put in ben folds five: whatever and ever amen, and listened to that for a while. Then i went online to try and find someone fun to talk to. I felt like i needed a pick me up.
I talked to andi for a bit, she's tony's girlfriend. Tony is my roommate. I talked to her for a bit, she left for work, i went offline.
I then went to some website to try and find out how to meditate, i read some things that i thought were cool. I did a few things that felt cool, and then i showered and went downstairs. It was about 25 minutes before my second class.
I should mention that i felt really good during the shower. Meditation is something that is worth my time to keep checking out.
There were a few extra's downstairs, meaning people i dont live with. I ate some breakfast. I decided not to go to my second class. We had a game of clue. I won.
By the way, clue is totally different then i'd remembered it as a child. When i was younger i thought it was simply a game of chance, kinda like sorry. But it's actually quite an intelegent strategy game. We've been playing alot of it in these parts lately.
I was to meet aine at 4:00 at olivers.
I left the house at about 3:20, with a moneen cd that i was looking forward to hearing. (By the way, jenna, i'm jealous you saw them, alot). I left the house in a mediocre mood, thinking to myself that i had to figure out what was important.
I mean really, it's a hard thing to figure out, what is important.
I tried a few little meditation things during the bus ride, i felt good. Moneen helped. Music is therapy. Music is everything to me, actually.
While on the bus i figured that what's important is to interact with the world around us, and try and encourage others to do the same. And i mean interact in a good way, like taking deep breaths when walking in a wooded area, or talking to strangers, or smiling to people, and encouraging them to smile back.
I mean, it's no striking theory. And as far as theories on life go, it was a fairly temparary one, but i think temparary things are more important then we think. I mean, love is fleeting, it's felt only in moments. Sometimes a large series of moments during times of eye contact, or intercourse, but it's moments all the same.
Side note: I love eye contact with a person that you're attracted to. It's unparalleled.
As far as love being felt in moments, i really believe that. You can feel it when you're in the moment. But when you're out of the moment, then you're just two people trying to get along. If you can remember how you felt during the moment, then you'l try hard to get along. If you can't remember how that moment feels, or if you think that the moment isn't worth all the grief that you go through when you're not in the moment, then there will be fights; disagreements between simple people who are putting the life they want to lead above the moments that they've felt.
I think that paragraph got a little too muddled, but instead of trying to piece together the statement i felt when i started the paragraph, i'm just going to let it be sorted out by the people who feel the need to do so. Kudos to you.
So i get to olivers, a little early, and what do i spy? A game of poker. Lets just say i am interested.
Aine gets there. We head off for food. As far as good conversations go, i had one.
Kent, i blame you for my habit of starting sentances with "As far as BLANK goes, Blankety Blank."
After i leave the foodplace, i walk around downtown, listening to moneen. I stop off at some cd store. One of those cool sorta off the cuff places, if that makes sense. I found a used cd that i bought. Jeff Buckley: Grace. I'd heard too many good things to not get it. Early signs are good.
I love buying new cds. I bought three new cds last wednesday, the two most recent Incubus cds, and the aformentioned ben folds cd.
On the subject of ben folds, i'm going to learn piano.
After i put the jeff buckley cd in the diskman that i borrowed from chris, i walked off to the music store, in hopes of getting a book that could teach me piano. I didn't end up getting one, cause their book guy has a week off or something. Personally, i think i just didn't buy one because of shotty salesmanship. But the 'book guy' is back on tuesday, so expect me to be picking something up then.
I enjoyed my treck home. I arrived home just after the pot had been smoked, so i'm on a crazy streak now, it's nearing a full week, i think. It's not really a good or bad thing to smoke often in my eyes, but sometimes i get the impression that people worry about my intake, so i dont mind keeping people posted.
The song smoke by ben folds five is really pretty, and it just follows kate, which is really snappy. They're both good songs. I think that's the point of the paragraph. I like ben folds five.
I think i've used up enough of my time and yours. I enjoyed the post, and i hope it was good for you as well.
Chowzers.
Inventions are constantly being made to give us more free time.
Why isn't all of our time free? Who's schedule are we following?
Between the two of them and myself, my student loan appeal application has been completed and sent in with approx 24 hours of preparation time, and an hour and a half to spare.
It's good to know there's people to count on when the going gets tough.
I want you to know that I can be counted on if the going gets tough for you.
In other news, i really dont know what i'm doing next year, i could be on either coast of the country, or somewhere near the middle. I could be in school, i could be employed. I will be playing music, but i dont know who with, or to what extent.
Two things are fairly certain though, i will be happy, and i wont be wealthy. Cheers.
I saw this awesome dark haired girl on the O-train about ten days ago. I opened up my school bag, got out my binder and wrote a song to her, as such:
You're just like every other girl
you read your book and fix your hair
you're just like every other girl
your head stays down, you make me stare
You've got me longing for your smell
you're meant for me i can just tell
I can't get up, i'm stuck in hell
i'm stapled down, i'm stapled down
I just deny
All of my bottled up and watered down emotions
so why
is it this way everytime?
You're just like every other girl
and you see someone you know
just like every other girl
you smile 'till your dimples show
I wish so much
that i was the one to make you laugh just then
is it too much
to want to cross paths just to try again
I'm so tired
of all my bottled up and watered down emotions
so why
is it this way every time
I just deny
all of my bottled up and watered down emotions
so why
why am i stapled down, i'm stapled down.
Note: This used to be a comment. But as you can likely see, it was too long.
Note#2: Dave commented at some point during the forming of this large comment, and he managed to say many of my key points. And i must compliment, he said these key points with fewer words, and therefor, in a more straitforward and accurate way. Kudos! And also, i look forward to a forum being set up. Alas, my comment is the following. And due to the nature of the comments in progress, most of it is directed to the josh.
Considering the next two quotes, i can tell from the top one that i've drawn the wrong conclusion from the bottom one, but read it again, can you blame me?
"Just because I have certain views on how parenting in the world works, does not mean those are my views on how I would parent." - josh
"It's a burden for a lot of people, which is why I don't plan on having kids for a very long time" - josh
So again, i'm sorry if i misjudged your comment. To be honest, i think you'd be a good father too, but thinking of parenting in terms of only having one child because of the potential burdan that children bring is not cool thinking in my books.
I admit that there's alot of people who do not want to become pregnant, but as dave said, these are the people who choose to give their children up for adoption or have them aborted. If you can find me a single mother who carried their child for 9 months and is currently raising them who will say that they do not want their child, then you'll have proved me wrong.
Then there's the comment about families living in poverty. Are they not capable of loving their child dispite the fact that it's financially difficult to care for them?
As far as parents who beat their children, in anything that i've ever heard they dont do it because they hate their children. People (that i know of) have beaten their children because they think that they know what is best for their child, and they dont know how to properly raise their children. They think if they beat their children, then they can get their child to understand them, and to follow their rules.
I dont know why you brought up AIDS, other then to state that children with aids dont live to be three years old. After a good 25 seconds of internet research (which isn't foolproof, but meh) i found this (it pertains to children in the UK):
"In the last ten years (1992-2002), 2254 children have been born to infected mothers. These children are either of indeterminate HIV status or not infected. Nevertheless, they are still affected by their mother’s illness." - www.cwac.org
Josh, i know all too well that there are alot of fathers who are frightened at the idea of halting their lives to take care of their new families, but this is sort of an argument in the wrong direction. If these fathers stay, then that would be taking care of their kids because it's what's expected of them, the fact that they leave proves that parents are not taking care of their children due to obligation. The fathers who stay to take care of their children do so because they have a desire to do so. And i want to add, that although some leave, it doesn't mean they dont care.
Finally, to kinda wrap up what i've been saying, i know there's alot of people who do not want to have children. I am one of these people who does not want a child. But i dont believe there's alot of people who dont want the children that they already have.
As far as people and their occupations, people show up to work because they want to receive pay for their jobs. If you dont go to work, then you get fired. The fact that their employers expect them to go to work, doesn't mean thats the reason they go.
I would hope that people become police officers because they like to help people, but at the very least, i would think people become cops because they feel power in their ability to uphold the law. And again, if someone doesn't do their job correctly, then they will have trouble keeping their job.
Just because i think life would be better if there wasn't any expectations of us does NOT mean i think life would be sweet if it was made easier. All of our dreams are reachable if we feel passionately about them and about our ability to reach them.
Another thing about life being made easier, i'd just like to say i'm tired of automatic doors. I can open my own door, i dont need some censored floor mat to open the door for me. Unless i'm leaving a store with a cart full of groceries, but i've gotta say, the situation hasn't come up. If a kind lady or gentleman opens a door for me, then i'll be happy to send him/her a kind smile, and be grateful for their efforts. I'll gladly hold a door for someone else as i'm leaving.
If our expectations are that doors will be automatically opened for us, then the oportunity for a kind gesture is lost. Which is another boo-urns for expectations.
Holy long comment batman!
Today, i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
I hit the snooze many times, and when i finally snapped out of the 9 minute sleep cycle, it was about 40 minutes before my first class. I decided that i wasn't going to make it to this class. I put in ben folds five: whatever and ever amen, and listened to that for a while. Then i went online to try and find someone fun to talk to. I felt like i needed a pick me up.
I talked to andi for a bit, she's tony's girlfriend. Tony is my roommate. I talked to her for a bit, she left for work, i went offline.
I then went to some website to try and find out how to meditate, i read some things that i thought were cool. I did a few things that felt cool, and then i showered and went downstairs. It was about 25 minutes before my second class.
I should mention that i felt really good during the shower. Meditation is something that is worth my time to keep checking out.
There were a few extra's downstairs, meaning people i dont live with. I ate some breakfast. I decided not to go to my second class. We had a game of clue. I won.
By the way, clue is totally different then i'd remembered it as a child. When i was younger i thought it was simply a game of chance, kinda like sorry. But it's actually quite an intelegent strategy game. We've been playing alot of it in these parts lately.
I was to meet aine at 4:00 at olivers.
I left the house at about 3:20, with a moneen cd that i was looking forward to hearing. (By the way, jenna, i'm jealous you saw them, alot). I left the house in a mediocre mood, thinking to myself that i had to figure out what was important.
I mean really, it's a hard thing to figure out, what is important.
I tried a few little meditation things during the bus ride, i felt good. Moneen helped. Music is therapy. Music is everything to me, actually.
While on the bus i figured that what's important is to interact with the world around us, and try and encourage others to do the same. And i mean interact in a good way, like taking deep breaths when walking in a wooded area, or talking to strangers, or smiling to people, and encouraging them to smile back.
I mean, it's no striking theory. And as far as theories on life go, it was a fairly temparary one, but i think temparary things are more important then we think. I mean, love is fleeting, it's felt only in moments. Sometimes a large series of moments during times of eye contact, or intercourse, but it's moments all the same.
Side note: I love eye contact with a person that you're attracted to. It's unparalleled.
As far as love being felt in moments, i really believe that. You can feel it when you're in the moment. But when you're out of the moment, then you're just two people trying to get along. If you can remember how you felt during the moment, then you'l try hard to get along. If you can't remember how that moment feels, or if you think that the moment isn't worth all the grief that you go through when you're not in the moment, then there will be fights; disagreements between simple people who are putting the life they want to lead above the moments that they've felt.
I think that paragraph got a little too muddled, but instead of trying to piece together the statement i felt when i started the paragraph, i'm just going to let it be sorted out by the people who feel the need to do so. Kudos to you.
So i get to olivers, a little early, and what do i spy? A game of poker. Lets just say i am interested.
Aine gets there. We head off for food. As far as good conversations go, i had one.
Kent, i blame you for my habit of starting sentances with "As far as BLANK goes, Blankety Blank."
After i leave the foodplace, i walk around downtown, listening to moneen. I stop off at some cd store. One of those cool sorta off the cuff places, if that makes sense. I found a used cd that i bought. Jeff Buckley: Grace. I'd heard too many good things to not get it. Early signs are good.
I love buying new cds. I bought three new cds last wednesday, the two most recent Incubus cds, and the aformentioned ben folds cd.
On the subject of ben folds, i'm going to learn piano.
After i put the jeff buckley cd in the diskman that i borrowed from chris, i walked off to the music store, in hopes of getting a book that could teach me piano. I didn't end up getting one, cause their book guy has a week off or something. Personally, i think i just didn't buy one because of shotty salesmanship. But the 'book guy' is back on tuesday, so expect me to be picking something up then.
I enjoyed my treck home. I arrived home just after the pot had been smoked, so i'm on a crazy streak now, it's nearing a full week, i think. It's not really a good or bad thing to smoke often in my eyes, but sometimes i get the impression that people worry about my intake, so i dont mind keeping people posted.
The song smoke by ben folds five is really pretty, and it just follows kate, which is really snappy. They're both good songs. I think that's the point of the paragraph. I like ben folds five.
I think i've used up enough of my time and yours. I enjoyed the post, and i hope it was good for you as well.
Chowzers.
Here's a thought:
Inventions are constantly being made to give us more free time.
Why isn't all of our time free? Who's schedule are we following?