I'm doing pretty well, living in ottawa, with chris, craig, tony, jess, and neil.
I'm taking three math courses, and an english course.
Dont have any books, and i've been to 15/22 courses.
I've been doing a bit too much of sitting around and smoking, and alot too little of going out and drinking, but we've decided to put down the pipe and go on a bit of a drinking binge. Just... after... this afternoon.
This post is basically a bland summation of what's happened since i left.
I think that in my room, i should have a poster of radiohead up, with a caption of "dont forget why you are here".
I'm enjoying the music making i've been doing. Although i feel less then whole in my abilities. Actually i've been feeling less then whole in a few ways. Mostly, i think i could go for a couple of short term goals. Cause i've got some long term ones, but nothing that i could see progress in right away, and therefor i've been feeling like my days are ending on the same note that they start on.
i was walking home along the canal today, and i passed a girl, and i was looking at her from pretty far out, and when she looked up at me, instead of looking away, i just gave her a smile and a wave, and she returned the favor, and it made me happy.
Sometimes life just bleeds simplicity.
I saw a poster of johnny cash today, and i had alot of thoughts. I was trying to figure out how it made me feel. First i was sad, with an uninspired thought along the lines of "awww, now he's dead, death is sad", but then i got to wondering why i cared, or thought i cared, and i knew that if aine or dave hadn't thought so highly of him, then maybe i wouldn't either. Maybe i wouldn't even know he was dead.
But then i kinda came about, and realized that i actually do care, on a personal level, which was nice for me. I think that hurt was brilliantly done, and i am glad that boy named sue exists. But a little more about the cash, i left the poster with the thought that there's really no need to be sad, it's not like he died young, or in his prime. Johnny cash was a great musician, and he had a fucking good life. I say congrats to him.
Do something for yourself today. Dont just do the things you have to do, but think for a sec, and consitering your options, do something that is on the top of your list of things that you'd enjoy doing. Too many days go by like the day before it. The future is no place to place your better days. Lets live now.